desahogada

ok so a couple of things today.... first, I saw DaVinci code... a piece of advice for ya; if you havent read the book and are considering watching the movie, dont. Just read the book. And if you have read the book and are considering watching the movie, dont. Just read the book again and feel satiated knowing that its as good as it gets.

Second, today I was called Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde, which means bipolar in literary allusion form. This might, and just might ladies and gentlemen be true. But these so called mood swings that I have are not mood swings per se but different aspects of my personality, awakened by different incentives. I say everything thats on my mind (and by that I mean everything) so every time I get pissed, even a little, you'll know. My latest problem was my inability to be heard, or understood, comprehended, comprendida. I love to communicate and when the last part of the communication (that being the receptor) does not get what I am trying to say, i suffocate, i frustrate, i curse, i cry, i become simply enfuriated. I pout, i write IN CAPS TO EMPHASIZE MY STATE OF ANGER, i start to talk to myself. Something that I cannot stand in a human being, is someone not standing for him/her self. When someone allows me to treat them like shit in one of my hysterical attacks, not once but over and over again, and then blames me for being so mean, guess what.... U TOOK IT. I try my best to not hurt people. I really do. So i warn. I say, "please understand that I will hurt your feelings" but that message is not understood either. It is not a matter of courtesy when I say that, its the simmple and awful truth. I cant be blamed if i cannot make myself understood in nice diplomatic terms. Im straight foward, and mean, and if u dont like it just stay away, or tell me off, or do something... DO SOMETHING. be a person, stop me, detain my madness, make my angered-self know that you are there, that you are a person an individual and not someone who is willing to take all the shit being thrown in your direction....
thats all folks... sorry for the rambling